of people and places

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I've fallen for people in places.
I've fallen for places with people.
I've also been abandoned - by people, places and promises.



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Often, I find myself watching over flickering lights at abandoned places.
Lights - waiting, just to be put out... by the ones who left them.




At times, I also tend to people who've been left behind.
Left behind with flowers - waiting, just to be withered.


x x x



Sometimes, I wish I had a map to plot people and places.
To plot them right back together...
Just so that they stopped waiting and weathering.





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