Monsoon thoughts at 4AM

There are a lot of things I can be grateful of when I think of the sky. How limitless it is, how open it is... how constant it is. And despite all that, it still manages to float - high up above us. 

The sky also makes me want to smile at the most random moments. It reminds me of you, reminds me that I am thankful that despite being far apart, I get to share a part of it with you, somewhere in its vastness.

Last night it was pouring outside and I felt grateful for the loneliness, for the quiet, for the moment. I almost felt timeless. I couldn't see a color in the sky but I heard the rain loud and clear. I could smell it too. And if I held out my arm a little, I could hold it too. But I lay still and listened to it for as long as I could. 

I wondered if you were listening to it too. I wondered if you had anyone keeping you company. You are not the biggest fan of loud thunderstorms, I know. So I wondered if it was pouring where you are... or was it the same drizzle I had under my sky. I wondered if you had your feet up on the railings like you usually do when it rains, or if you were only just watching from your bed like I was. I wondered if you had a song playing the background. We both have our songs for rainy nights. Tonight I had none. I know the rain and the sky wouldn't mind finding comfort in your honey voice. So I imagined you humming a song you've recently come to love ~

The moon looks lonely
Like it's crying in the bright night sky
Even though I always know the morning will come
I want to stay in your sky like a star

I wondered if you smiled enough today, crinkling your eyes in the corner, scrunching your nose a little. I wondered if you were absently touching the mole next to your pinky as you wrote a little today. I wondered if right now, wherever you are, you felt comforted by the rain. I hope you did.

There wasn't any color in the sky when I looked up at it. And I wondered if you were under the same colorless sky too. 

As the city sleeps around us, I hope that tomorrow when we wake up to a blue sky, you know that I only wish you well.