Standing up again

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They all say it is gonna be okay again.
They all say there is gonna be a beautiful tomorrow.
They all say it is still the same.
They all say there's a happily ever after.

And I am standing on the edge
keeping the grip steady.
'Cause it's too close to fall down now.
'Cause it's too soon to lose it all now.

I've seen my demons.
I've known them inside-out.
And I know how it feels
to be brought down to my knees.

The cliff now doesn't seem too high.
The climb now doesn't seem too hard.
I had been warned too much'
but now I've found it all.

I have heard all tales,
of fear and of defeat.
But I stood up to add
a new tale of feat and so I did.



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