as i move through

“They say the soul feels bad if there’s anyone crying near the cremating body…” I overheard two young girls in a conversation as I stood in the terrace overlooking the Bagmati river while Dai and I waited for the evening a arati at Pashupati. Dai and I rarely go out together. Truth be told, we don’t really get to spend much time together. With our weird timings of college and work, we rarely see each other. And also, mostly because him and I like to keep to ourselves, we are rarely in company of others. And yet, today here we were- in a chilly afternoon, miles away from home, surrounded by one too many people watching the sky change its colors. “Why do we have to stay here and look at this?” Dai whispered out loud as he eyed the family in the riverside busy performing the final rituals of one of their family members. Dai insisted he couldn’t watch all of that. “I am getting all teary eyed. They are all crying,” he said. “If you don’t cry here looking at that, what will y...

Once I got the hang of how the shapes and pen tool worked in Adobe Illustrator, I made this cute little owl. As you can see, I had little knowledge about fonts and to be honest, I did not know where to download fonts from. Another trivia, I am bad with colors. Real bad. I did sketches when I was younger but colors were never my forte. Guess you can see my lack of sense of colors here too... I struggle with colors even now. But I am trying to get over that fear.

I started my illustration journey last winter. I drew Sadness (From: Inside Out ) on the day I brought my new laptop home. Though I haven't been able to give more time to this on a day to day basis, I didn't stop practicing and getting feedback from family and friends. At work, I showed my work to senior designers and got constant feedback from them. At one point, a comment that a senior designer, Seetu, gave to me regarding my illustrations brought me close to tears. But she had a good reason behind it. Her words made me want to try more and draw more. But, even now, I get scared when I am asked to design or illustrate something because I am not confident about my work. But I am not scared to ask for feedback and guidance. And I am forever grateful to Seetu, Amogh Dai and Dipesh Dai for guiding me through my efforts. Thank you! A friend of mine in college happened to see my try to make a bookmark a few days back. Bibhuti asked to see some of my earlier work and show...