as i move through

Yeah, I see your face, it smiles at me... The same old smile that meant the most to me... But now it haunts me, it reminds me of the past... It makes me think of you, of something we had but don't now. Yes, it kills me and still, the fallacy is mine. I should have grown stronger, I should have moved on well. I couldn't do it fine and so, I think you're still mine. You were always a guiding star, always my helping hand...  But you seem so far now, Our distances don't seem to abate... I want to scream out this pain, enough of walking down the memory lane... What should I be doing? Whom should I be believing in? This doesn't seem fine at all... All so messed up. All so blurred....

I see things change, I decry the pieces fall. Not everything seems to be the same. I am unable to curb things the way they used to be. People seem to have fled far. The gleaming light did fade. The hope within me isn't there now. That shimmering hope is now long gone. There's no one I can trust upon, No one I can believe in. The qualm just tends to raise, As if it won't ever lay down. The whim of the devil seems to be fulfilled now. It's not the same now, not even a bit. The flickering glimpses of the past haunts me now. I loathe being here but this is how life is.....